I think my children are trying to kill me

I am happy to report that there were no pantless air marshals on either of my flights.

The trip was fabulous and I will go into more details in my next post.

My return home was great. I came home to a clean house and happy children.

Then I woke on Tuesday with a fever.

Then I lost my voice.

The creeping crud that my kids had the week before dropped into my chest.

It hurt to breathe.

So doctors were called, meds were started.

I still have no voice and I can still feel my chest rattling when I breathe, but I am feeling a bit better.

Then this morning as I peed for the eleventy millionth time because I have to drink lots of fluids Giggles comes busting into the bathroom because she had to vomit.

Yeah, I am pretty sure that the girls are trying to kill me.

One overlapping illness at a time.

Disclosure-The trip that was taken to NYC was paid for by Unilever because of my ambassadorship in their Family Dish Program

Anxiety & Airports Totally Go Together, Right?

I haven’t been in an airport in nearly fourteen years.

Not that I was a frequent flyer or anything because counting today I will have flown 3 times (round trip)

I will be going to New York City for a Unilever event with The Family Dish gals.

I thought my heart was going to beat right out if my chest when I was waiting to check in.

The gal from American seemed to sense my stress and told me that it’s really not too bad and I should just breeze through everything.

I could feel my anxiety build as I handed my luggage to the security guys.

I was physically shaking when I went through the security checkpoint and was relieved to not need a pat down.

As I sit here people watching and waiting for boarding to start I finally have a calm about me.

A peace in which I know that everything should be okay.

Although I did have a crazy dream about getting in trouble with an Air Marshall over a Fruit Roll Up. It was crazy and unbelievable and he wasn’t wearing pants.

So if there is a pantless Air Marshall named Dave, I am so outta there.

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I Believe in Signs

My mother in law loved to garden.

When she was well her garden thrived and was just so beautiful.

I remember commenting about how lovely her garden was and how I could never have a beautiful garden like hers.

The next Christmas I got a book. The Encyclopedia of Gardening or something like that. That book still sits on my shelf and from time to time I thumb through it, pondering the garden I will never have.

It’s not that I don’t want a garden, it’s just the fact that no matter how hard I try I can never keep one alive. Add to that the toll it takes on my body being outside digging, pulling, and lugging and it’s just not worth it.

But I did love her garden.

All too soon she became ill and her garden was a distant memory.

We all tried to help out, but it was just no use. Weeds were choking it out and slowly killing that garden that she loved so much. Much like her liver was slowly killing her.

Three years ago on Saturday she passed away after years of fighting for her life. A new liver was found, but not before her body was too weak and sick to accept it.

For years the guilt has riddled me because of the plea I made the day that she went into the hospital to never return.

You see, I was helping to take care of her. I was splitting my time between my house and hers during the day to make sure she ate, took her medicine, got to the bathroom, and any other things that needed to be done while my father in law was at work.

I wasn’t forced to do it. I happily helped because I loved my mother in law so very much.

The day that they got the call about the liver being available for her I was exhausted. My mind and spirit were spent and I lay down on the floor in my bedroom and I wept. I cried out to God to do whatever He must but I just couldn’t go on like this any longer.

I was too tired. The burden seemed too much.

When we got the call that they were on their way to the hospital I rejoiced as I thought my prayers had been answered. Only to have my heart feel like it was crashing onto the floor when we later got the call that the liver wouldn’t help.

I never told anyone that I blamed myself for her passing. But it was there. A big ugly elephant in the room whenever I would go over to her house.

She was never there, but the guilt always was.

Last year my father in law had work done in the backyard. He wanted to make it something of beauty that my mother in law would have been proud of. Something like she would have done.

The garden had to be removed so that it could be restored. The landscapers tried to save what they could and replant, but to no avail as it all perished.

This past Sunday we got together to celebrate her life and spread her ashes in her garden with the hopes that someday it will look like it once did, for her.

My father in law doesn’t know how it survived, as he is sure that the landscapers had dug everything up and it hasn’t bloomed in years.

It is one of the last clematis that she bought, I remember her showing it to me as it started to bloom. She loved that flowering vine and I know she wants us to know that everything is okay.

Signs

This post is part of You Capture; Signs

Summer’s End

It seems like just yesterday the girls were getting out of school and we were wondering what we were going to do with this summer.

There were plenty of sleepovers, trips to the barn, trips to drop off Giggles at work.

Lots of late nights, laughing, bug bites and playing video games.

Confession; The Chicken plays Little Big Planet lots & I still don’t get it

There weren’t enough trips to the beach, s’mores, cook-outs, or camp-outs.

I look at my girls and I wonder just where the time went.

Sooner than I think we will be sending Giggles off to college and then The Chicken and well my heart just can’t think much further than that.

I am thankful for school. The routine. The knowing exactly what day of the week it is.

I pray that my girls stay true to who they are and remain individuals. I pray that they surround themselves with people who lift them up. I pray that they will know peace, love, and happiness even more abundantly that I have known them.

I look forward to see what this school year holds.

And I look forward to next summer when we can spend our time lazing around staring up at the sky to see this.

Summer Nights

Helping to Power A Bright Future with a Giveaway


Sometimes I walk up to the playground and I just sit and stare at the school from the bench next to the playground. It seems so long ago that my girls ran out of those double doors and into my arms after the bell rang.

Its amazing to me that with school closings in our area, making the student size bigger, that the feeling can be the same.

McKinley is one of the elementary schools in my town. The one that I went to for my Kindergarten year and then my girls attended when we moved to this area in 2005. It was a school that I was confident for my girls to go to after talking with the secretary (who now happens to be a good friend) on the phone for 15 minutes when calling & getting information about registering.

I remember how she stayed later than she would have normally stayed so I could get a chance to get up to the school to register them and how she wasn’t upset when I didn’t have all the paperwork. How each member of the staff that we encountered that day was so very friendly and asked the girls about themselves and welcomed them to their school.

How when I visit I can always count on a hug from Mrs. Sullivan and I am always able to pop my head into Mrs. Ward’s classroom and say hello to all My First Grade Friends.

How teachers that didn’t even have my girls in their class will ask about them by name and sigh when I tell them that Giggles will be a sophomore and that she is driving.

“She can’t be big enough for that.” they always say. And I always agree.

In some ways the school is very much the same, but in other ways it is different.

Last year it was rumored that grades K-3 were going to lose their PE, Music, and Art classes. The teachers could just do that stuff in the classroom and the kids always get out for recces.

Thankfully by some miracle we were able to hold onto PE, Music, and Art Classes for the little ones, but sadly something else had to go.

The Band & Orchestra Programs for kids in elementary school is no longer there. Sure, they can pick up band or orchestra when they get to one of the middle schools, but I just don’t think its the same.

I remember when my girls were entering 5th grade and how they were excited to be able to play in Band for the first time. How each week they would tell me about the day that they got to be excused from class with their fellow band-mates so they could go practice.

I knew that if I had a question about something, Mrs. Brawley would happily answer it, even when she was in another school that day. The kids loved her and we loved that when she said that the concert would be 30 minutes long, it was 30 minutes long.

Each year in May they have a huge Band Concert at the end of the year and all of the 5th and 6th grade bands from the entire school district get together to play the same songs. The kids get all excited as they get to play in the High School Gym and its really something that so many of them look forward to.

I remember the difference in what just one year made in how they sounded. It was phenomenal.

When Clorox and The Motherhood contacted me to ask if I wanted to be part of The Power a Bright Future Campaign I knew what school I wanted to share with you.

Now many may ask why wouldn’t I pick the middle school or even the high school to submit for this grant. The answer is simple. Elementary school is the foundation, the building blocks of a child’s education. So many times they are at the bottom of the list because the needs of the older kids come first.

We could have lost football or track or some other thing associated with the middle or high schools, but we didn’t.

I know that McKinley would benefit from a grant of $50,000. Couldn’t a school in your area benefit too?

Now a little something from Clorox

· Music, art and sports offer some of childhood’s most memorable experiences, but recently, budget cuts in schools nationwide mean many of these programs are being cut. We know these programs can be critical to a child’s educational experience, and can be just plain fun.

· Each year parents hold fundraisers to keep enrichment programs in schools. Now there’s another way to raise money for your child’s school: Power A Bright Future, created by the Clorox Company, will help brighten kids’ futures with school grants to help fund critical programs. Parents and teachers can help kids continue to learn and play by nominating their school programs for a Power A Bright Future grant from the Clorox Company.

· Since 1980, Clorox has donated $80 million to non-profit organizations and community programs with a focus on schools. This year, the company is awarding four grants, totaling $110,000, to help fund school programs that will brighten and enrich the lives of kids.

· There are multiple ways to participate and win. In addition to nominating your school and voting, participants have the chance to win a variety of daily prizes including supplies for your school and coupons for Clorox® Disinfecting Wipes, Clorox® Regular-Bleach and Clorox2.

· As part of the Power A Bright Future grant program, Clorox is seeking nominations for school programs for a chance to win a $50,000 grand-prize grant or one of three $20,000 grants to help provide critically needed resources to school programs that enrich kids’ lives and create brighter futures. In November, four schools will be chosen to receive grants and the opportunity to impact the lives of children in their communities.

· For more than six generations, Clorox has been a trusted stain remover and disinfectant, ultimately helping to keep families healthier, cleaner and happier. Clorox wants to continue to celebrate these activities that help kids continue to learn, play and create. To nominate a new or existing school program, visit www.Clorox.com from August 12 to September 27, 2010 and choose the category that best represents your idea. The three categories include: Learn, Play or Create.

· Nominators will receive exclusive Clorox classroom tools and the chance to win coupons for Clorox® Disinfecting Wipes, Clorox® Regular-Bleach and other great prize packs daily.

· Once the nomination period has closed, we will leave the voting up to you. Between October 4 and November 1, be sure to vote for your favorite nominee. To encourage votes for their entries, nominators will receive a “Promote-it!” kit with tips on how to encourage votes, like sharing on Facebook and an e-mail for friends and family members.

· For official rules and to nominate a school program, visit www.Clorox.com.

And if you got through all of that I have a surprise for you!

I will be giving away one Clorox Back to School Goodie Bag if you comment and tell me what program you would most like to see your school get if they were awarded $50,000 from Clorox.

Included in this pack will be:

Clorox Disinfecting Wipes
Dr. Harley Rotbart’s book Germ Proof Your Kids
Clorox Hand Sanitizer
Tissues
Fun stickers
Crazy cutting scissors
Markets/pencils/crayons

Now for the rules (because there always has to be rules you know!)

This giveaway is open to US residents only. (I know, I know my Canadian friends it is upsetting but you should be used to this by now).
This giveaway will end on September 7, 2010 and the winner will be randomly drawn the good old fashioned way of pen, paper and a big bowl.
Make sure you have a valid email attached to your profile or you can leave it in the comments.
If I don’t hear from you by September 8, 2010 I will have to pick a new winner on September 9, 2010.
If you would like an extra entry to the contest you can tweet about it using the hash tag #cloroxbrightfuture (make sure you leave the link to your tweet.

FTC disclosure-I was compensated for my time of writing this post and hosting this giveaway through Clorox and The Motherhood. All opinions are my own and I really do love my girls elementary school

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